Some thoughts

Once again, I find myself becoming an insomniac and I can't sleep at night, or rather I can't fall asleep very well.  But it's far too late to get any studying done because my brain is simply off.  But I've been thinking about a few things lately that I'd like to share.

1. I can't believe I'm here and only have 2 months left, but I also can't believe that I still have 2 months left.  Lately I have been waking up very homesick, but throughout the day I get better and better and by the end of the day I'm find and can't sleep.  I've realized that I only have about 10 weeks left, although I'm sure my grandmother knows the exact number of days (love you grammy).  In the 4 weeks I will not be here for 3 of those weekends and 1 whole week.  Then I only have 2 weekends free here, 1 in Vienna, 1 in Lagos, Portugual and 1 in the Costa Del Sol.  Now, that poses a problem you see.  Because I still have a list of things I still want to do here; like go to the Parc de Ciencas, go to Nerja, go to Malaga, and other such things around here.  Too bad I have so little time.  I'm also regretting now planning a trip to Ireland now, but alas I have run our of weekends.  But I'm glad I have so much planned, that means I'll be very busy.  The last 2 weekends I have here in May will not be spent here, other than I believe the very last weekend.

2.  Many people have their family showing up right about now, when we're all homesick and can't wait for spring break.  Well, as much as I would love for my family to come visit me, and see where I live, what I do, I'm almost glad for it.  After seeing one friend after her family left I know I couldn't handle it if my family came.  She was just sad and missed them, and I know that if my family came I would have to do the whole grieving process all over again.  That's not something I want to do.  It would be very nice, but I'm also thankful for the fact that I have to push through this all on my own and it will just make coming home that much sweeter.

3.  I have somewhat abandoned my private journal.  As much as I try, as often as I try, I'm just not a journaler. Granted, sometimes I get the urge to write, I have to write out feelings or simply record something funny.  But I have come to the conclusion that I'm horrible at it.  I much prefer this public place where you can all hear about my adventures; that also means I don't have to write everything twice in two places.

4. Today went a lot better at the school.  Lately I've been rethinking my whole life...I know, not a good time to be doing this when I'm 3 years into college and abroad, but what can I say?  And somehow I lost sight of how much I enjoy teaching.  While today was slightly challenge, I enjoyed it.  My spanish isn't perfect, and when I have to deal with snobby little boys who think they're so funny and laugh at my Spanish, well, that's difficult.  But with a stern look and merely standing near them that was enough.  I felt really good helping the few kids that were a bit slow and just simply weren't keeping pace in class.  It's those moments where I realize that I really do like doing this, and it will be soo much easier when I get back home and can speak English in class.  Although it has given me the confidence that maybe it is a good idea to speak spanish to my students.  When I was taking my class last semester I was like absolutely not, code switching is fine.  But now, yes I still agree code switching is fine (switching between the languages) but I do believe that maybe it can help to do a lot more in Spanish than originally thought.  We'll see how this turns out. Oh, also, I get to teach something on Thursday!  My advisor finally told me I can do a grammar review and prepare a short lesson with the Spider-Man song with them.  So we'll see how it turns out.  Wish me luck!

5. Next school year.  I just finished picking my classes and I have to say, sadly I'm not very excited about them.  The Spanish courses offered leave something to be desired, although I supposed my literature class can turn out to be interesting.  But the mexican rebellion may be a bit...dry...  And Philosophy and Lierature with a writing emphasis with a hard grader...yay.  I'm also taking two Education courses, which typically are my favorite, so we'll see.  I'm just hoping that my second spanish class doesn't get cancelled, because I have no idea what I'll put in there if it does.  I had one spot open, where I didn't need to fill anything in, so I have no idea what I'm going to do if that happens.

Just some gorgeous graffiti I came upon on Saturday.
The city is filled with really pretty murals like that.  

That's pretty much it.  I guess all I did really was give a small update on what I'm thinking and the few things I've been doing in the past day or so.

I will leave you with a wonderful picture of street art/graffiti that was on a building, or rather, I think it was someone's house.  :)

Love and miss you all. <3